fuck the night away

I'm a rocketeer.

2012-02-05T05:35:00.000-08:00

Spend my Sunday just doing homework and I'm not even half way through. Haha I have been gorging myself with so much food today. Guess I'm burning the midnight oil today. Match against ACS (I) tomorrow and lets face it, it's going to be a challenge winning them. I'm not saying it's impossible but it's tough. So disappointed with our performances for this year. 2010- 4th and this year only a top 16? I swear this is so fucking demoralising but guys this isn't over yet, we must not let one downfall affect us. Take this as a lesson, learn from our past mistakes. I'm sorry for screwing up.

Spent my Saturday at Cleavon's house to Bai Nian! Gambled a bit here and there. Managed to earn back $9 despite losing $6 at the beginning. Those boys are truly my bros. Always there for me through thick and thin.

I have been raping the replay button ever since.. I'm hooked to it already cbb

Stay Positive

2012-02-03T05:55:00.000-08:00

Well it's almost over. If we lose one more we are out. We were so capable and had so much potential to get through the second round. Maybe we lack luck? Faith? Focus? Determination? Whatever happens, this isn't the end yet. We won our first 2 matches and lost 1, ACS (I) on Monday. Hmmm they are really a strong team, but that still isn't bringing us down. Even if we lose, we lose as a team. Can't help but agree with what coach mentioned today,"Softball is the hardest sport." 9 players on the field with the opponent batting. Before anything can happen on the field and we already have to anticipate every play. We still hv another comp coming up in March, that's something we can look forward to. Whatever happens, stay positive guys. The time I spent with you guys is really one of the best times in my life. So freaking grateful I didn't get in CHS.

I have shitloads of hw for the weekends. I don't even know if I have the time to finish at all. I thought MOE came up with some rule that our hw can't exceed 2.5hrs? Well mine exceeded 6hrs no kid.

homework

2012-01-29T07:09:00.000-08:00

First match tomorrow. All pumped up for it. I hope the whole team is physically and MENTALLY prepared for it. After all shouldn't be too much of a problem. Today has been pretty dull and boring. Not much of a thrill, other than the massage I did with my family. It was freaking painful cause of the way the masseuse did it and he said I was unhealthy. That explains why I've been feeling so dizzy this few days oh well. I'm still stuck with so much hw to do. Laziness always get the better side of me fuck. I seriously need to study harder, tests are approaching and I'm hardly paying any attention in class. Half the time I'm either talking to someone or just dozing off. I am so inconsistent.

the middle man.

2012-01-25T04:20:00.000-08:00

See how cute he is :)

Isn't everyone sick of being the middle man? You can't take sides when both of your close friends quarrel. It's such a tough decision to make. These past 5 days of CNY was great, other than the fact that there was school today. Such a mood spoiler. I only managed to win $35 after 2 days of CNY, sigh.

B div fixtures are out, wouldn't say it's easy but it shouldn't be much of a problem for us to go top 8. Oh God please bless us. Other school may despise us, it doesn't matter at all. I know we have improved drastically after a new coach came. Discipline, sportsmanship and determination was seen in us, but maybe it's not up to our expectations yet. We still have a lot of room for improvement. Whatever it is guys, champions? The reason why RI is always getting champs is cause most schools that played with them, lost right at the beginning. So what if they are RI? Get your mentality set right guys. With a losing mentality you ain't going to win games.

Watch your back people, cause WE know we have potential. We ain't going to let anyone bring us down, cause we are ONE team. The tears, blood that was shed, is all going to pay off after all. Anyway good luck to all for their B Div comp!

God bless us everyone.

THIS WAS HOW MY CNY WENT :)

Happy CNY!

2012-01-22T08:22:00.000-08:00

Hectic hectic day. Had reunion lunch with my family at home and must truly compliment my grandma's culinary skills. She makes the best dishes in the world! Went to CCK to get Lenvin's CNY shoes but he was so fussy and fickle-minded. Took him a long 1 hour to finally get a shoes. Bought The Sims 3 at comics connection cause it was so bloody cheap, like only $20? Dad wanted an electronic jet toothbrush so we went to IMM to get one and there was where I got a new table lamp and new portable charger. My day was so fulfilling! Went back home for reunion dinner and I'm really so blessed to have such bonded and awesome family. So excited for lunch tmr and gambling so & so. Heard my granny is giving us each $250 to gamble, sounds fucking good huh!

uhh she's so hot! Oh Lyndon, continue living in your own fantasy.

Anyway guys, Happy CNY!

We shall be undefeated

2012-01-20T08:38:00.000-08:00

Today was filled with so much funnn woo. Went to meet Bel & Nigel at KAP to just slack a bit, freaking retarded and awesome I tell you. Love them so much, thank God for such friends like them. Met my clique ppl at Yishun MRT.

Northpoint got boring so we went to Kiri's house for an early CNY celebration with my bros. Won $11 from nothing. Managed to catch the last bus phew!

I'm really so grateful for friends like them. Words really can't described how my life have been so great with you guys. Thank God. Even if most of us are from different schools but see how bonded we are? Conflicts are seldom. :)We may have our ups and downs, but you know what I love most about all you guys? We get back tgt stronger and closer than never before. I am so sorry I get unreasonable and selfish at times, I apologize guys! Dull & almost meaningless without friends. You guys have been so understanding really, most people would have left me by now cause I'm too intolerable for them haha.

love you guys so much <3

Trevor, Isabel, Cleavon, Nigel, Codee, Eri, Leonard, Kiri, Zhi Yong, Allen, Scott, Han Keong, J-lin, my team.

Dogs are so lovable.

Get your ass back home

2012-01-19T04:43:00.000-08:00

This week has been so bloody draining. It's all about school & training, barely even have enough time to revise and do my hw at all. Indeed being in a triple pure science class is a lot more stressful. Everyone else is more attentive and less bullshits, no more fooling around. Guess what? I still have 2 essays, A & E math hw to do still. fux life. I just wna crash right now but how!! Reaching home at like 8-9 lately cause season is starting in a week. 3 weeks into school and my bro said I got abs muahaha. Muscle aches, constant panting and gasping for air, climbing up 5 levels of stairs almost everyday, paid off.

I just feel like giving school a miss tmr. After all there isn't much to do tmr, other than handing up my work. Missing a day in school seems like I'm going to miss quite a lot. Intuition tells me haha.

I miss you, I missed you.

2012-01-16T05:49:00.000-08:00

Huge sigh.

Why must I get the Monday Blues every single week without fail, it isn't nice at all. 3 periods of Physics to kick-start my day and it was so freaking exhausting for us just to survive 1.5 periods. The teacher never fails to bore us to death. I tried paying attention but it didn't work out for me at all. Other than that, the rest of the day was rather smooth-sailing. It's just really tiring for us students to have lessons till 4! My schedule is so hectic I swear. I know mine is nothing compared to the sec 4s/J2s and I'm already feeling the jitters for O's although it is still a year to go.

Training right after school till 6.30. I had only 1 break and it only lasted for 25mins. Rather pleased that I got into the team. Thank God.

Well at least being in school can keep my mind off you. I want to move on, but I can't. I totally understand that Long D rs ALMOST never works out and I ain't taking the risk either. I'm a wuss. I'm at lost. I wonder if you have moved on already xx

haha I have so much to rant about today.

There's this person whom I shall not name.

THAT person often judge people and calling me stupid. It doesn't feel good really. You constantly want things to go your way and don't you think it's a little selfish of you? You often think you're right, when you're wrong. You get pissed/annoyed at the slightest thing. I don't hate you, I just dislike the way you treat others. You are a little materialistic too, you take advantage of people. You are a really nice friend, but have you ever spared a thought for others?

Obviously, not.

One moment you can make me so happy and the next moment you can make me so annoyed.

I never mentioned this to anyone before cause well, they'll hate me for judging too.

Nobody is perfect, I hate myself at times too.

CNY shopping.

2012-01-15T07:12:00.000-08:00

This week has been pretty messed up. It had its up and downs, pros and cons but at least I had a great ending for the week. Freaking shopping spree with my family today, spend like 1.2k. Yea I know, unbelievable. I certainly am quite contented with what I have for CNY. Went to Robinsons and bought lots of kitchen stuff but I didn't buy anything cause I don't rlly need anything. I'm so drained and I still have A Maths hw to do sigh.

So proud of my bro :)

Bought a new bag for softball and my books!

Pray

2012-01-12T07:25:00.000-08:00


We are right here for you throughout your darkest times.

Hey dear friend, I know it's going to be really difficult for you to get over Zen and right now you are really fragile and emotional. It's totally understandable, I pray everything gets better soon :) I know Zen has always been with you through thick and thin. He was always there to listen to your problems and stood up to wee hours just to accompany you. This is going to be a huge blow for you but know that everything will get better soon. There will be light at every end of the tunnel. We are here to pray for you and Zen! I'm sure he doesn't want to see you like this too. Remember! God, your family and all of your friends are always right here to support you, no matter what. :)

Typical Monday Blues

2012-01-09T04:43:00.000-08:00

"I'm a bit lost."

What a rough start, a wake up call for all of us. Larry got his O's result today and obviously it wasn't up to his expectations. He tried staying all cool and normal when deep down his heart, he was depressed and discouraged. Seeing mummy so disappointed and gloomy really get me thinking, this isn't going to happen the second time when I get my O's result. Dad & mum always expected us to be the top and not the bottom, that's the expectation we had to live up to. After all they just want the best for us. It sucks when I have to appeal and seeing my parents pleading to so many principals just to get me into a better school. I didn't really like what they did at first, but now I understand they just want the best for us. haha remember Dad always tells us this, "Be a leader and not a follower."

Witnessing so many people crying today is truly a wake up call for me. I better buck up. This is a really cruel society where everything nowadays is just results and they neglect your other attributes!!! School has been pretty smooth lately, so glad I got into this class. Classes mostly end at 4 except for Tuesday & Friday! :(

baby you light up my world like nobody else

2012-01-08T04:56:00.000-08:00

Today was literally the worse Sunday ever. It was like any other weekdays, but worse. I didn't even touch my books nor make an effort to at least exercise maybe? Today was really disappointing but shall not think so much about it. I'm getting more worried for my brother O's tomorrow, I know he studied hard, but not good enough. Whatever his results may be, God bless you bro. You will always have me by your side even if dad & mum isn't. Don't feel dishearten if you didn't get the results you strive to get, life fucks us occasionally. Take it as a lesson, a wake up call and don't let anything bring you down. I'm so proud to have a brother like you, a role model although sometimes you get overboard and do the nonsensical stuff. I really pray hard you'll get your desired L1B5 12 points too, it is possible! Have a good rest tonight and don't think too much about tomorrow. We will all be there for you in the school hall when you get your results. Rest assured, I'll be there. That's what bros are for right? Going through thick & thin tgt!

our future looks promising

2012-01-05T03:28:00.000-08:00

Today has been pretty fulfilling and fruitful. 2012, adventure awaits. I know it's going to be a good year although it's really stressful. Really heaped up for my season in 3 weeks. Sec 3 is so different, I now have 8 subjects to handle and not 5 now. I better buck up. Met my gang @ macs in the morning! Told them to meet at 7 but guess what, no one was on time! Kelvin reached at 7.10 and Cedric wooo, latest. Started the day with 2 periods of A Math. First freaking time I paid attention for almost all the lessons and I survived the day without falling asleep in class too. Totally deserve an applause haha. There's this new student that transferred from RI just cause his dad wanted him to. It's really selfish of his dad to do that and he's not allowed to go out at all! He has to stay home all day and not even allowed to use the computer wtf. I asked him "What do you do at home then?" he said "Study or watch the television. Sometimes I go to the gym too." that explains his buffness but that's besides the point. He was so close to hitting his dad but he resisted somehow and in return, his dad freakin whack his face. How the fuqq did he live like this? You got my full respect for you dude. You won't regret coming to Montfort anw, the people here are awesome :)

Season in just 3 weeks, time waits for no man. With our determination to strive and new coach, I know we have potential. Don't lose hope guys, we all have each other by our sides. Never seen a team as bonded as us, that's why I freakin love you guys. srsly can't imagine school without you guys! thank you so much!

nobody said it was easy

2012-01-03T08:10:00.000-08:00

"Be strong now, because things will get better."

first day, and i'm already awaiting for the worse to come. I prayed for a good teacher and I got one, thank god! Passed grooming check unexpectedly. The first day of school wasn't that bad but it wasn't exciting and to add oil to the fire, my classroom is on the 5th floor! Imagine how big my calf muscles would be after 2 years heh. I thought wearing long pants would make you cool and like 'bigger' and 'almighty' but nah it isn't worth the heat at all. Practically spent the whole day in the school hall and thank God for the air-con! First thing I observed were all the 'innocent' sec 1s, all looking so terrified and afraid cause secondary school is a whole new environment to them. As usual, Mr Tan began his boring hall assembly with along and whiny speech, fucking lullaby seriously. You know how they always say they will keep this as short as possible but it always take as long as 45 minutes over a small tiny matter? what a killer.

The principal told all the teachers and staff to go up the stage and hoho we began using our phones. First freaking time there wasn't any teacher around us. freedom ttm. He introduced some new staff blabla and he told us applauding is welcomed but we just had to jeer at some teacher. After we jeered at some of them, their face is seriously priceless, simply pathetic and helpless. It's like 2000 of us vs 1 of them. Oh well I do pity them a little and after all they do derserve some sympathy. Went to nex with my softball mates after school and well I left early cause I really wanted to go home and just nua in my bed! Slept all the way till 10, such a pig. really really had a nice chat with one of my friend, never fails to make me smile when i talk to her. I'm sorry I am a very boring person to talk to! sorry fellas

happy isn't happy at all

2012-01-01T04:58:00.000-08:00

celebrated New Years Eve with my clique. went to bel's house @ 5 to meet Scott, Hk and Nigel. i was just playing my maple story ps though haha, i'm such a kid. left bel's house at 7 and went to plaza sing to have our dinner and played LAN for an hour. went back to bel's house at 11.30 and we just hang around till the clock strikes 12. AND THERE CAME IT WAS 2012, we went high hahaha. watched Juno till around 3 and must admit, quite a commendable show! Nigel stayed over at my place and he keeps giving me this 'hospitality' service i must give him! he's such a joke haha. slept at 5.30 and luckily Nigel didn't snore this time! what a relief.

woke up at 12 to prepare for Church but we were all really tired idkw. left my house at 1.15 and reached Suntec at arnd 2.15! luckily we made it in time but nigel insisted he needed food and so that made us late for service. It was a pretty enlightening service, so blessed to be in new creation. went home at around 5 and met Joseph in the bus! what a coincidence. i was feeling so sick and lethargic so i took a med. my neck is still so achy but I'm glad my fever has subsided.

You're leaving so soon, time flies so fucking fast. I'm not sure if i'm mentally prepared to see you leave. why is everyone leaving in 2012? you are migrating. Lewis is serving NS and coach eric left. all 3 of you mean so much to me. it's so depressing u'know. i'm at loss. i need to build up more self-esteem! Thank you so much for 2011 guysOkay I want to sleep now, still having a slight fever, bye!

BBQ!

2011-12-30T08:01:00.001-08:00

Summing up the day, fatigue. Woke up at 8.30 and was super late for training cause it was suppose to start at 8.30. Took a cab to school and it cost my like $22.50, burn such a huge hole in my pocket. We played a game against the old boys and some of the C'div people and won them 12-10, really tight game though but nevertheless, good game guys! It was last day for Coach Eric coaching us and it really got emotional at the end of the training, first time seeing coach cry! made me a little teary as well, what a great coach. he still holds a legacy and he will forever be remembered in our hearts.

Went to Jerome's house at 5.30 and his house was such a beauty. Everything was so simply and yet so elegant. simplicity is indeed a beauty. Swam, BBQed and did lots of shitass stuff at Jerome's house! it was a hell lot of fun, thanks guys :)

Some people say I'm quiet, but usually I have so much to say just that you're not listening. I always wait for everyone to say their piece and there it carries on to the other person and so so. BUT, it never gets to my turn and so I get sick and tired of waiting that's why I get quiet and lonely. just sitting by the corner and be a loner. well it doesn't matter anyway, everyone has their own problems too.

i'm so pathetic.

story telling!

2011-12-28T09:12:00.000-08:00

look at that Angry Birds shirt!!

today was so thrilling woooooo. went out at 6 and met Ben at Bishan Market for dinner! The food there is fucking amazing!! Loved it! I called Trevor to bring me an extra shirt cause mine was really tight and obscene and he HAD to give me his ugliest and biggest shirt ever. freaking sweet of him to do that haha. went to school @ like 8.30 to lepak and wait for Cleavon to come. Played basketball at the indoor sports hall till 9+ cause we were really scared we get caught haha, such pussies. slacked at some void deck till 10+ and reached home at 11. Going to play maplestory private server now woohoo. fugging eggcited.

happy boxing day

2011-12-26T06:41:00.000-08:00

today was boxing day and indeed I did fight with someone. almost pwn his ass but he begged me to stop haha. just kidding fellas. went to Bel's house at 2.30 to skate with Nigel like all the way to 4 and went back to her place. played qwod and i thought it was funny haha. had lots of fun at her place! left @ 9.45 with Han Keong, Scott and Nigel. those weird little creeps. thank God for friends like that!

it's a cold and lonely night. and wtf am i feeling so moody. any listening ears? actually no thanks, you'll find me annoying...

Merry Christmas!!!

2011-12-25T07:07:00.000-08:00

"My friends are my estate."

Christmas Eve's was a blast! Went to Cleavon's house at 6pm for dinner and the gift exchange thing. Really appreciated the gift Trevor got for me!! haha he got my gift and he was literally rofl, he could hardly believe his eyes!! well it's the thoughts that matters at the end of the day anw! everyone jeered the moment they saw Allen entered with his rlly funny hair, it was fucking hilarious btw. couldn't stop mocking him haha, okay should stop here I'm so mean sigh. Went to Somerset arnd 11 for a walk arnd town to Dhoby Ghaut! played LAN @ dhoby till 1.30 and we were screaming out heads off in the MRT station like there was no tomorrow. Cleavon being the party animal, screamed Merry Christmas out loud for everyone to hear!!

Flagged a cab from Dhoby to my house and it cost only like $7 inclusive of the Midnight charge wow. as usual, leo and zy had to gl the cab driver. those 2 jokers make me have butterflies haha. went for supper @ blk 29 to have their wanton mee but we had to wait for like 30 odd minutes wtf. totally ruined our appetite and patience level just deteriorated sigh. Gambled at my house for like 2 hours and earned about $25, total mood booster woo. AND FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE, I TON THROUGH THE NIGHT! now that i'm done with that, it's never going to happen again cause it's so freaking exhausting. Leonard and Cleavon was like so high at my place.

Went for service in the morning w the rest from like 10-1? I was really fatigue so kinda took a short nap during service. off to Marina Square for lunch! Leonard was still so high from the previous night and I got no freaking clue how he did it cause he didn't sleep at all too.

really really hoped you like the card, wasn't fantastic or good but I wrote everything from the bottom of my heart. I'm sorry I ain't good at this stuff!! but anyway Merry Christmas!! <3

christmas party!

2011-12-22T08:57:00.000-08:00

chalet was great, although we didn't do much. So blessed to have friends like you all! thanks guys!

Going to spend my Christmas Eve's w/ trevor, ben, cleavon, zy and hopefully kiri! yea miss you guys too! can't wait to see you guys on sat cause we are gonna have loads of fun. Going to Cleavon's at 6.30 to have dinner with his family and after that heading to town to just countdown till Christmas! fucking excited wooo. Going Penang w/ fam from 26-30 although i'm kind of unwilling to but nvm, family bonding! 9 more days to 2012, make the best out of it.

"Never planned that one day, I'd be losing you."

rolling in the deeeeeeeeep~

2011-12-19T06:08:00.000-08:00

I swear that song is so damn catchy! It has been stuck in my head since morning lol and I want to get it out so badly!!! Was suppose to meet Trevor they all @ Dhoby at 2 to play LAN but I woke up late.

okay shall write a dedication to my dear friend Codee who is leaving for Aust on Jan! :(

hey codee! it's been nice knowing you like since 2010 but we were never rlly close till like june 2011. I'll miss you so so so fucking much too! Australia is going to be a whole new experience and brand new start for you, hope everything goes smoothly for you. I'm sorry I wasn't there as a friend to cheer you up when you were feeling down. I guess i'm to pussy oh well. I'm glad everything went back to the way it was before. Don't ever forget about us!!!! We will miss you dearly, goodluck in Australia! <3

finally the table has arrived!

leaving behind the broken pieces

2011-12-17T10:13:00.000-08:00

DARE service today was beyond amazing, other than Leonard cracking up all his retarded jokes haha. It's like a must for him to comment about everything, even the slightest thing! haha he's too funny! went to koufu to slack till like 6.30. reached home at 8 and went to dine with Lenvin at tiong! that small brat, too cute. Soccer at night from 10 to 12.30. fucking shag now, blisters everywhere fml.

Today has been pretty smooth, glad everything went back to normal. the letter you wrote was pretty sweet :') thanks a million. I'll miss you very very very very very very much when you're gone and I definitely won't forget you! it's so hard to forget someone whom you were so close to before.

stoked for chalet on wednesday! need to start saving up.

cya fellas.

i'll never be the same without you

2011-12-16T04:09:00.000-08:00

training was superb today, love my whole team so much. can't imagine what school will be without you guys. went to dhoby ghaut to watch MI, wasn't that amazing other than all the cool stunts.

Been blogging a lot recently, but it somehow feels really good after letting it all out, instead of bottling it up. I've been doing a little soul-searching these few days, tried really hard but I just can't. and it's definitely 10000x more awkward around you now since Wednesday. Feelings change, memories don't. It hurts so much when I'm thinking of you but you are thinking of him. The whole bus journey home I was just stoning and reading all our texts. so you stopped liking me after your camp. The last text you send me before going for your camp was "Haha will try to!!! I'll miss you too :-)". Woke up at 6am the other day just to send you a goodbye text, and I was so happy when you said that to me. words can mean so much. well after all it was the past, you moved on, so should I. Thanks a million for the times we had with each other, it really made me feel special and loved. can I rewind time and start all these over again?

Life isn't what you make it, it is what you became off when life's done with you.

the perfect getaway

2011-12-15T09:08:00.000-08:00

exhausting but great, that totally sums up my day. met Cleavon and Trevor @ bishan at 4. played softball and basketball and cat high till 7 cause Trevor needed to go home for dinner.

I knew I couldn't kept everything to myself cause ultimately that will hurt me more so there, there was Trevor and Cleavon to confide in. they are one damn bunch of good listeners! totally appreciate for all they have done for me, thanks guys. words srsly can't describe all the retarded times we've been through tgt. sorry for neglecting you guys these hols!

ate dinner @ the buff boy' Cleavon's house! haha feel so fat from eating all the junk food. but well, there's always training to burn off the unnecessary fats. met Trevor @ the void deck at 8.45 and took a stroll around Bishan Park just like good old times hmmm. if only Ben and Allen came along, that will be the bomb. so we headed on to the bridge to slack till 11. reached home at 12 pheww. haha today was just so retarded and fun but i'm rlly lazy to elaborate.

Karma's a bitch and it just came right knocking at my door. finally know how it feels like to get hurt and rejected by a girl. yes it sure is fucking dejecting. looking at it positively, i sure did learn smth out of it; not to play with other people's feelings. after all, feelings can't be controlled. not going to lie, i def need more time to get over you.. going out with you tomorrow, hope it doesn't get awkward x.x

exactly how we are feeling right now. down

fuck the fuck

2011-12-14T06:12:00.000-08:00

i've been fucking living a lie all this while. you gave me so much hope which made me carry on liking you. right now, i just need a fucking getaway, i just can't take it anymore. don't blame yourself, it was never your fault. I brought these all upon myself. i'm stupid, retarded and just a fucking cunt. why? why? why does everything has to end like this? and the fucking worse feeling you get is that the girl you like, likes someone else. my heart immediately sank. i wanted to scream my fucking guts out. i was so fucking devasted and worse still, i made your birthday became shit. i'm sorry i left half way, i tried my best looking fine to you but i just can't. right now, all that matters is you guys are happy, cause i fucking don't know what to believe and not to believe. physically: okay. emotionally: fucked. overall: dead. it hurts so much when I just think of you, cause right now, i got no one but myself. life is a bitch, but it carries on. please please motherfucking please don't blame yourself, it was me who ruined everything and if you have anyone to blame, that's me. well let's get back to living a lie, since everything back then was much better. if only life had a delete memory/feelings button.

ps. I'm so fucking apologetic to somehow ruin your 14th birthday. it was suppose to be a happy day since you're turning 14 today and anw I hoped you enjoyed yourself.

sobs.sobs.sobs.
oh well i'm too much of a pussy to face reality.

bye.
im fine.

red velvet cake

2011-12-13T09:34:00.000-08:00

today was so freakin exhausting. woke up at 12 and met isabel, nigel, valerie and kimmy! good to see kimmy after so damn long! she didn't changed at all haha, still the same old talkative and small girl we all knew. ^^ so basically Nigel and I had to walk from Beauty World > KAP > Bukit Timah Plaza. Doesn't sound tiring but it was fucking hardcore! so we reached Bel's house at 4.30 and started all the baking and was done by arnd 6. watched The Ring with all of em and it wasn't that fantastic. Valerie had to leave early cause her mum came to pick her up and finally it wasn't that awkward arnd her anymore! after that we watched Doctor Who but Nigel and I slept for 30min cause we were damn shag already haha. Started frosting at 10pm but nigel and I weren't good at baking so we did a little bit of the board thing I guess. Left at 12.15 w kimmy! She insisted walking with me to my condo cause she didn't want me to feel lonely and stuff haha so nice. so I waited with her for her cab. great day guys!

It's my dear friend Codee's birthday today, HAPPY BIRTHDAY GURL ^^

hey soul sister

2011-12-12T06:43:00.000-08:00

Girls need to realize ♥

We guys don't care if you talk to other guys.
We don't care if you're friends with other guys.

But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.
It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there. We don't care if a guy calls or texts you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.

Nothing is that important at 2am that it can't wait till the morning.

Also, when we tell you you're pretty/beautiful/gorgeous/cute/stunning, we freakin' mean it. Don't tell us we're wrong. We'll stop trying to convince you. The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.

Yeah, you can quote me.

Don't be mad when we hold the door open. Take advantage of the mood I'm in.
Let us pay for you ! Don't feel bad. We enjoy doing it. It's expected. Smile and say thank you.

Kiss us when no one's watching. If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.

You don't have to get dressed up for us. If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of make-up you own.

We like you for who you are and not what you are.

Honestly, I think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's. Or my t-shirt and boxers, not all dolled up.

Don't take everything we say seriously. Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it. Don't get angry easily.

Stop using magazines/media as your bible. Don't talk about how hot Chris Brown, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us. It's boring, and we don't care. You have girlfriends for that.

Whatever happened to the word "handsome"/'beautiful"I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with "Hey handsome!" instead of "Hey baby/stud/cutie/sexy" or whatever else you can think of.

On the other hand I'm not saying I wouldn't like it either.

Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, don't wait for him to change! Ditch his sorry butt, disgrace to the male population, and find someone who will treat you with utter respect. Someone who will honor your morals.

Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.
Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.
Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.
Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes and say I love you and actually mean it.

Give the nice guys a chance.

ADVICE:
*Holding Hands* -Girls: If you want to hold his hand, gently bump into it a couple of times.
*Movies* -Girls: During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder. -Guys: Lift her chin up and kiss her.
*Loving each other* -Guys: When she tells you she loves you, look deep into her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her too and mean it.
*Laying below the stars* -Girls: When you're both laying under the stars, put your head on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady heartbeat. -Guys: Whisper in her ear and link your hands with hers.

a little smth i got from facebook.

im still alive but im barely breathing

2011-12-12T04:30:00.000-08:00

woke up at 6am today for training but decided to pon for the first time since i'm really tired haha. so I had to text mr wong to tell him im sick and all the bullshit. Went to plaza sing to play LAN with the cat high people. as usual Leonard was bullshitting half the time haha. He's so funny, blessed to have a friend like him.

after 2 hours of LAN I had to go J8 to get my ear studs and some disinfectant thing for my ear. reached home pretty early today surprisingly! had a hearty meal and whoopp, day went pretty smoothly.

"Knowing you made a difference in someone's life is the best feeling in the world."

trudat.

set fire to the rain

2011-12-11T07:30:00.001-08:00

shag. A Maths tuition in the morning with bel and shopping in the afternoon with my family! woo bought lots of stuff but my mum said we could only wear it on new year. it's like 2 months away sighh. but anyway today was great! dinner @ orchid country club. the salmon there is like the jizz in your mouth, fucking amazing.

my nike sb!

this is the best salmon bro

gonna take you for a ride on a big jet plane

2011-12-10T09:30:00.001-08:00

well today went pretty smoothly other than soccer being like shit. I lost my touch, kick and concentration, better buck up. asked Nigel after soccer if I was crazy about (stuff you guys shouldn't know) since he's the only sensible and one that listens and wow! he gives pretty good advices and it did mean a lot. thanks fella :)

do you know how much your heart can hurt when you see someone you love leaving?
do you know how much you actually mean to me?
do you know how many sleepless nights I've had but had no one to turn to?
I'm scared to commit cause that's something I'm just really bad at. Everyone tells me it's best to forget but do you honestly think it's so easy? I've tried an umpteen times already but at the end I still chose to get hurt. Call me stubborn, foolish, stupid or whatsoever I don't care and feelings can't be changed so easily. I want to tell you how I feel but well.....

All I ask is don't forget us and all the fun/retarded times we've had, cause that's one of the best times of my life I promise.

Feelings change, but memories don't.

don't leave

2011-12-07T04:24:00.001-08:00

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first fucking time I thought it will work out but well, only a month and a few days left.

timee

2011-12-06T07:53:00.001-08:00

Pierced my left ear just a day ago and many people is saying it's gay! Finally took out my stud with Ben's mum help. I'm such a pussy oh well and I can go home since I have my ear stick on cause it isn't that obvious. Intended to stay in Ben's house but I rly needed to go training the next day so well.

What is love?
"When you fall in love, it is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake, and then it subsides. And when it subsides, you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots are become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the desire to mate every second of the day. It is not lying awake at night imagining that he is kissing every part of your body. No... don't blush. I am telling you some truths. For that is just being in love; which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over, when being in love has burned away..."

on a side note,
i love you.

haha I feel so weird saying all these.

one for all, all for one.

2011-12-04T07:38:00.001-08:00

Today was such a blast! had A Maths tuition in the morning and followed by furniture shopping with my mum. went out at 6 to have dinner at Lower Delta but the food there wasn't as fantastic as it looks. I spent lots & lots & lots of money today; 1.1k I suppose.

went to Tangs with my family and woots bought lots of stuff! today was definitely a day to remember haha. my dad tried posing and had supper at Newton Circus! the food there was great and affordable!

I know this table don't seem to worth 1k but it's pretty useful cause it has plenty of space!

Mum and Dad still so loving haah <3

Lewis and Larry chillingg

Aren't they sweet?

idk why is this photo so dark but heck la haha.

Bought a new school shoes! the same old classic converse I've been wearing since p6.

personal

2011-11-23T10:16:00.001-08:00

moved. tyvm

livinginmars.tumblr.com

fixed at zero

2011-11-22T05:21:00.001-08:00

Today was really satisfying and fun! Woke up at 12 and wow been so long since I slept for so long.

So I was suppose to meet Isabel at her bus stop at 12.45 and went to cine to meet Eri and Nigel! Went playnation from like 2-6 cause there was some package thing, most of the most retarded times I had. After that we went to 313 to eat Din Tai Fung, walao eh eat one plate of fried rice like $13! but it was worth it.

Eri is leaving for US this Sat so today is kind of the final time I'm going to meet her before her trip. Bon Voyage good friend! HAVE FUN AND BUY ME STUFF!

all the right moves

2011-11-18T07:13:00.001-08:00

Sometimes it may seem I have so many 'friends' but when I think deeply into it, I wonder who are the ones that will be there for me. Often I hang out with this group too often and I neglect my other closer friends, only then causing us to drift apart. I'm so messed up and I don't appreciate the people around me which isn't good. Sometimes I just want a simpler life cause right now everything is just so hectic and messed up. How I Met Your Mother? One of the best shows ever. Everyone in the show appreciates and treasure each other. They do the weirdest stuff together and they always got each other back no matter the circumstances. Maybe I care too much? or maybe too little?

So today was pretty boring, met Nigel at Somerset at 3.30 and slacked till about 4 and he came my house to play FIFA 12. haha owned his balls. After that, we went to Isabel's house to slack but they all took damn long to come lol. Isabel had tuition so we all had to like leave since there wasn't anybody at home. We were deciding to go West Mall to have our dinner but all of the sudden Eri left the bus to go home and totally left us in the lurch. -.- Sometimes I feel like we are friends, sometimes I feel like we're more than friends, but sometimes I feel like a total stranger to you. I live in this isolated place I call society where everybody judge you, criticize you, hurt you, tease you. I'm no better, cause I'm one of them.

MY DECK IS HERE

2011-11-14T22:45:00.001-08:00

After a horrendously long 1.5 months wait for my deck, it finally came today. Need to go Asikh's house tomorrow to get it from his house but I'm feeling really lazy heh. Heading off to cine later on at 5 to meet zy and the rest. Fucking miss those boyss, knew them since I was like primary 1-3. Best mates for life just that I really hope zy quits smoking. He's been telling me he will stop since like EOY but I guess forcing isn't helping, at least he is cutting down lol.

clueless

2011-11-12T05:50:00.001-08:00

I'm absolutely clueless of what I should do. I don't know if it's good or bad but sometimes my mind goes insane. You are really a good friend and I really treasure that. I need to make a decision quick cause time is really not on my side, in like 2 months time zooooooooooom your off to Australia and you'll be there for 7 fucking years. what a major heartbreak. sighh. I care, I love but I'm still absolutely clueless. My mind really can't decide on what's right and what's wrong and often it leads me offshore. I'm in a total dilemma right now, sighhhhhh. ask or die? If only I had more time on my side...

time's a bitch

11/11/11

2011-11-11T07:42:00.001-08:00

Today was pretty smooth, had lots of fun today! Training at school as usual and I must admit, it was one of the best training I had in ages! Mr Seow gave me his Topman shirt and Liverpool shorts as some farewell thing! Had a h2h talk with Kelvin and Damien at the coffee shop nearby we usually hang out at.

Went home and changed and met the rest at arnd 4+! slacked till 6 cause we were waiting for Eri to come so we could swim. Swimming was pretty enjoyable and fun today. yayy today was totally so fulfilling. We then went back to Bel's place at arnd 8+ and watch Hop lol, I didn't really watch though cause I was too fatigue and burnt. Experiencing the worse sunburnt ever.

Plenty of things happen today but I don't feel like elaborating too much on it. yesss a hug will definitely help. anyone? :)

desires

2011-11-09T04:02:00.000-08:00

Training was simply chaotic today. Most of them wasn't even interested to train properly and some probably even lost interest in the sport. Competition is in 2 months time and it's going to be a lot tougher this time round cause we are definitely facing stronger opponents. We definitely must buck up and have more self-discipline. where is the hunger for top 4? where is the desire and love for this sport? what are our goals? It's a team sport and we win and lose as a TEAM or as INDIVIDUALS.

So after training I headed to John's house for a bath cause I was meeting the rest at Cine and I had a really foul smell after training. We watched Sector 7 and I must admit it was one of the most retarded shows I've ever watched.

I guess it's time I actually give up and since there really isn't any point in holding this 'love' thing on. At the end of the day I'm only going to hurt myself and probably lose her as a friend. But oh well I just can't hold back my feelings. Things aren't the same anymore after I told you I liked you.

Just like seasons, people change.

hectic

2011-11-06T21:10:00.000-08:00

Hectic, that totally sums up to my whole week. This week has been so messed up that I guess it's probably the most screwed up week ever. hmmm shall just cut this short.

So like recently I've been having a crush on this really great girl, shall not say her name. I already know its a one-sided thing but I still insisted on telling her that I like her. How stubborn of me... It's probably time for me to grow more mature and snap out of this reallyreally fucked up thing called 'love' and yea I think I've been annoying her repeatedly. annoying fag eh me

I'm going to write this to dedicate to my superr awesome friend srsly who have always been there for me and advising me on what to do.

Eri!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I swear she's one of the most amazing friends I had, she always understood how I felt and give me the best advises anyone can give. This whole week has been messed up, but she's always the one comforting me. so blessed to have a friend like her. thanks :)

we found love in a hopeless place

2011-11-01T07:56:00.000-07:00

Celebrated Hallowwen w/ bel, J-lin, Leonard, Nigel, Codee and Eri yesterday! Wasn't really fun but it was fine though, thanks guys!

times like this

2011-10-27T08:53:00.000-07:00

It's time like this that I really need a cigg, smoke all my problems away but hmm it still wouldn't benefit me at all. Furthermore I made a promise, and I don't intend to smoke for the rest of my life anyway. I do admit I am really lucky to have friends like them, they are always behind my back and supporting my through thick and thin. Went to Cleavon's place to gamble again, heh won a few bucks and dine at bishan area! Reached home arnd 11 although I promised my grandma I'll be home before 10. Last day of Secondary 2 tomorrow, time flies. Secondary 3 isn't going to be easier and I'm taking different subjects and wearing long pants etccc.

THANKS GUYS, FOR BEING SUCH AWESOME FREINDS

TREVOR

CLEAVON

BENJAMIN

ALLEN

HAN KEONG

NIGEL

LEONARD

SCOTT

ZHIYONG

KIRI

LEONARD

ERI

CODEE

ISABEL

and everyone else ^^

Ryan Sheckler

2011-10-20T01:04:00.000-07:00

86 for History and 77 for Maths. Quite pleased but also disappointed at the same time. I was pinning my hopes on a 80+ for Maths but see where it got me.

RYAN SHECKLER

I was watching all the videos about Ryan Sheckler yesterday on YouTube and I must admit, he's pretty damn good at this sport. His passion and talent for the sport definitely brought him far.

sk8

2011-10-18T06:51:00.000-07:00

Today was fun but really tiring. Totally fatigue and drained after skating and gyming. Went street skating with J-Lin, Darryl, Isabel and Milton. I swear Darryl's deck is damn good! GREAT CONCAVE AND HAS A GREAT POP. Jay's zooyork was good too. Sigh, waiting desperately for my new Element deck to arrive. Been about 2 and a half weeks since we ordered it.

fucking sex.

It Hurts

2011-10-17T02:02:00.000-07:00

I can now finally commence that exams are over. Sure time flies, exams too. I have so much to do after the exams but first, really need to save up some $$.Prob find a job or help my mum during the hols? FOR NOW. PARTY HARDCORE.


You Ready?

Hmm sometimes I really need something or someone to rant to and blogging seems to be the only way cause there isn't any word limit of whatsoever. I know blogging isn't really a guy's thing but heck it. I have feelings too. When I need to write about something personal or what I don't mind people reading, but I don't like it when they mock it or tease about it. I'm not pissed or anything but please just spare a thought? Trust me man, my life is so hectic and messed up that sometimes I wonder why I'm on Earth too; often relating to family problems and I feel like saying it all here, but I can't. I'm pretty sure no one likes it when you get mocked at.

It's definitely worth your time watching it.

askaskask

2011-10-13T21:58:00.000-07:00

FORMSPRING ME GUYS

shoot.

finafuckingly

2011-10-13T21:49:00.000-07:00

The one paper that I dread most is finally over, won't really say it was easy but shall not think too much about it. Now, I just need a fucking getaway and a really long break although I don't really deserve it. Meeting my friends to skate at Scape to skate later. Isn't it astonishing that teachers actually care? well not all the time...

See you guys for Halloween bitchez

oh well, isn't she smokin hawt

Exam's a bitch

2011-10-11T05:40:00.001-07:00

Literature was a breeze today, glad my hard work paid off. As for my Chinese Paper 1, I didn't have proper time management and couldn't think of a story to write. Totally rushed through my whole cl paper. Tomorrow is History and I really hope to get an A1! After all I've been studying quite hard! Didn't really study much today, only went through my notes for History and Eri tested me.

ALL I HOPE FOR EOY IS JUST GET INTO THE STREAM I'M AIMING FOR. AMEN

fate.

2011-10-06T09:27:00.000-07:00

Awesome, totally sums up my whole week. :-) I got to admit, you guys are really awesome and you all have always been there for me; well most of the time. WORDS LITERALLY CAN'T EXPRESS HOW MUCH I'M GRATEFUL TOWARDS YOU ALL. Exams are starting next week and I must seriously finish 8 more chapters for Science, which is definitely possible.

My 'studying' clique!

Han Keong

Nigel Lee

Scott

Isabel

Eri

THANKS GUYS SO MUCH :-) GOODLUCK FOR ALL YOUR EXAMS. I'M SURE THE HARD WORK WE PUT IN THIS PAST 2 WEEKS WILL PAY OFF.

God bless you all for your exams!

enlighten me

2011-10-03T08:19:00.000-07:00

There isn't much time left and I still got so much more to revise on. Just got back my science test and I did exceptionally poor and it wasn't up to expectations at all. My brain is constantly failing and deteriorating me. My grades are also dropping, science test 19/40. Fucking demoralized and stubborn, need to buck up.

'Time waits for no man.'

I have so much to do after the exams. The list is never ending, but sadly I don't have so much time. I shouldn't be thinking about this. Exams are my first priority atm.

just you wait.

embrace

2011-10-01T08:52:00.000-07:00

I'm immensely scared that I'll not do well for my EOY. This week passes in a blink of an eye, barely even touched my books. I'm trying hard to study, but everything around me is a source of distraction. ):

1 more week, need to persevere. Hope all my efforts will not go down the drain.

In your presence of Your perfect love, my fears are swept away.

Exams.

2011-09-28T05:45:00.000-07:00

Exams are just 2 weeks away, there isn't any more time to lose. This is an important year cause it determines what stream I'll go.

#GodIsAble to let me go whatever stream I'm aiming for. Amen.

God is able
He will never fail
He is almighty God
Greater than all we seek
Greater than all we ask
He has done great things

[Chorus]
Lifted up
He defeated the grave
Raised to life
Our God is able
In His name
We overcome
For the Lord
Our God is able

[Verse 2]
God is with us
God is on our side
He will make a way
Far above all we know
Far above all we hope
He has done great things

[Chorus]
Lifted up
He defeated the grave
Raised to life
Our God is able
In His name
We overcome
For the Lord
Our God is able

[Bridge]
God is with us
He will go before
He will never leave us
He will never leave us
God is for us
He has open arms
He will never fail us
He will never fail us

[Chorus (x2)]
Lifted up
He defeated the grave
Raised to life
Our God is able
In His name
We overcome
For the Lord
Our God is able

For the Lord
Our God is able
For the Lord
Our God is able

Devastated.

2011-09-26T02:09:00.000-07:00

Everything is changing, to the fucking worse. What you did honestly makes me feel disgusted and it changes my whole damn impression of you. I never knew you were those kind of people that will get involved in such shit. I don't want to say too much about it, shall not elaborate further. Anyway this is kind of confidential. I can no longer face you any longer.

I want to run away from every single problem. But I ain't going to be a pussy.

I have so much to say but it's so hard to trust anyone.

I need a listening ear, spare me one?

Truth

2011-09-24T21:33:00.000-07:00

Messed up, that definitely sums up my entire week. I kept reminding myself to study but a system in me keeps dejecting it, this isn't gratifying at all. Church was awesome, I'm so blessed. With EOY just round the corner, I really need to buck up, this isn't primary school anymore. I have so much time to spare, but often I use it for the wrong reasons, I probably have time management issues.

sleep-deprived.

I NEED A FUCKING GETAWAY.

Something to get off my chest.

2011-09-19T03:24:00.000-07:00

I screw up, so fucking much that I loss count.

FUCKING AMAZINGG!

2011-09-17T07:25:00.000-07:00

Today was fruitful! Went to Scape with Isabel, Nigel and Han Keong to get my board! Cost me $245, so now I have no more money. ): Need to start saving for the holidays.

I know, DOPE.

So I went to Bishan on Friday to 'study' with Trevor, Cleavon, Allen and Benjamin, but turned out, only Trevor and Cleavon studied. I must really start focusing and be more productive in lessons. I got so much more to work on. So this was how the day turned out to be...

Act the study niaa

HAHAHA ANOTHER ONE

bff

I honestly thought he looked like harry potter when he wore those.

Trevor is ashamed of his haircut

The buffboy doing 60kg squats

Kid. heheh

Advertising Blackberry

Trying to study..

nahh

Bro for life

BUFFLORD

I feel so much better after deleting all the posts about you. Stop using the 'mah, ya' cause it sounds so mutt. Can't you just let it go? You're seriously too oversensitive and possessive. Grow up kid.

For YOU :)

Moments

2011-09-15T01:14:00.000-07:00

Opportunities in life doesn't come easily, so cherish it. There are always stupid moments when I'm repulsive, ignorant and just fucking dumb, but I can't help it. It's me. Everyone has their flaws, but it's what make them who they are.

SO LOOKING FORWARD TO WATCHING JOHNNY ENGLISH REBORN! LOOKS DAMN GOOD! IT'S A MUST WATCH! ROWAN ATKINSON!


FUCKING JOKER.

It's definitely your loss if you're not watching this fucking amazing movie!

Stressed

2011-09-14T04:34:00.001-07:00

I think I screwed up my history modular exams today. The questions was manageable, but my memory seemed to have failed me. Should have studied harder, exams are just round the corner. Buck up dude
Yes I'll probably need that.

Like this status and I will play a guessing game! wooo I wanna try!

-Age:
-Height:
-Single or Taken:
... -Favorite Color:
-Favorite Sport:

Then, you comment & tell me if it was close. I'm not good at this though

GO LIKE ON FACEBOOK. ESSENTIAL FOR GUESSING THE ANSWERS FOR EXAMS.

Inside

2011-09-13T02:13:00.000-07:00

CCA has stand down. First paper on 10/10 and time really flies. I have to really start revising soon as this is an important year to me. It's actually physically impossible for me to study at home, everything around me is a distraction. I can barely even sit down for 30min to revise. Seems like studying isn't my thing. It's amazing how fast 2011 had passed.

I make my weaknesses my strengths and my strengths stronger.

-Lisa Fernandez